May 2010
2 posts
MURRAY
I met Murray back in November when I was producing a web series for him. Although he was essentially my boss, I had been working on the series for about a month before actually meeting him. We had a pretty casual exchange, mostly because when I met him I did not believe he was my boss! He immediately took a liking to me, which I enjoyed because it made my job a bit easier.
I was also working...
JEREMY UPDATE
I’ve been in a Jeremy blackhole. I am so head-over-heels in love with this man, that I’ve allowed him to completely consume my life. The two of us have been back and forth between New York and Philadelphia so many times in the past six weeks, that I’m almost not sure which city I live in at this point. Because I freelance, I’ve been able to spend extended periods of time...
April 2010
5 posts
JEREMY
It’s official: Jeremy and I are in love! We had the most wonderful, romantic, pleasure-filled, loving, laughing, happy weekend.
We already knew we would have a great time together because we’ve been friends for so long. I was so nervous when I was getting off the train. He picked me up from the station and the moment we got into the car together, I knew it was going to be...
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JEREMY UPDATE
What a whirlwind this last week has been! After Jeremy left my apartment last Wednesday, I couldn’t stop thinking about him. He BBM’d me a few hours after he left me to ask me if it was “too soon to tell you that I had a great time with you? And I’m really happy right now?” I responded back with “not at all! I am really happy too!” Which sort of set...
JEREMY
Jeremy and I met during first semester freshman year of college when a tornado passed through our campus and we were evacuated to the basement of our dorm. We lived in the same dorm, but had not yet met. He was funny, and smart, and a bit of a hippie. We were instant friends. And we stayed friends throughout all of college.
But Jeremy always had a crush on me, which I knew and pretended not...
COLIN UPDATE
So, I never got the chance to break up with Colin. It just sort of…fizzled out. My friend Diana thinks that he’s clearly so emotionally inept that he saw it coming and wasn’t even equipped to have me say something about it to him in person, so he just avoided it. Which I suppose makes it easier for me. It’s a clean break, I suppose. No one to blame.
What a weird...
March 2010
3 posts
FUCKING MARK
Had the fucking nerve to send me an email last weekend:
oh jeesh hi there-
so you presented yourself in my dream last night (we were trying to get somewhere but running late-story of my life) and i awoke this afternoon in a bit of a panic. i am not contacting you to ask to be your friend or talk about the past or anything like that- i am merely contacting you to say that sometimes i think...
COLIN
Oh, boy. This is the end. At least, I’m trying to make it the end but I’m being a HUGE pussy about it. WHY IS IT SO HARD BREAKING UP WITH PEOPLE?! I have such a complex about hurting people’s feelings/confrontation. I need to get over it!
I knew this thing with Colin was over last week. Last Friday night, I invited him to come out to dinner with one of my best friends from...
COLIN UPDATE
I know I’ve gone MIA again. It’s a combination of working again and spending alot of my free time with Colin (which has become minimal, because of the working again part). I really like Colin—he makes me laugh, he pays attention when I talk, and he makes me feel a total comfort/serenity when we are together. BUT I’m not totally sure that I feel like we’re actually...
February 2010
15 posts
CRAIG. OR, MAN-BABY FACE.
Craig and I had plans to grab drinks after work on Tuesday night. After what happened the last time we hung out, I was sort of skeptical, but I figured that after our conversation about how I did not want to date right now he would be respectful and lay off. Around lunch time he asked me if I wanted to meet for drinks at the bar at the Mandarin Oriental at the Time Warner Center. I had never...
COLIN
Colin came back from his weekend away on Sunday night, and was too zonked to hang out. He asked if we could reschedule for Monday. I was totally cool with that as I was sort of dreading hanging out with him on what happened to be Valentine’s Day.
The next day, Monday, we made plans to have dinner after work. I had started freelancing at a new production company and had a really terrible...
JIM IS OFFICIALLY OUT OF THE GAME.
Yes, officially. We FINALLY hung out at a non-work function on Saturday night and I was so turned off by what I saw. I’m amazed he was able to maintain that charade for almost a full year.
We were invited to a party in Brooklyn and decided to go grab a drink at Crocodile Lounge before hopping on the L train to Williamsburg. When he showed up at the bar, I could not get over how strange...
FRIDAY IS A GOOD DAY FOR BOYS.
I’ve been sort of anxious about Colin. I’m starting to doubt myself and what I am capable of giving to someone right now. I’m still struggling with figuring out what I need to give myself. I am certainly in no place to settle down and be someone’s wife or mother. I need to be someone’s boss first!
So when my friend (and trainer) Elaine and her boyfriend (and...
MORE COLIN UPDATES
After that party on Tuesday night, I went over to Colin’s. I had the cab drop me off at the Duane Reade near his apartment so that I could pick up some contact solution and a toothbrush. I made it to his door a little after 11pm, and he was sleeping! For the first time since we’ve met (which was not too long ago!) I am starting to feel the age difference between us. Or maybe...
JIM UPDATE
Jim, myself, and our other partner, Graham, threw a party last night for all of our efforts/success/support in our sports comedy collective endeavor. When I walked in, Jim was sitting alone in the bar with one of our actresses, and the three of said our hello’s briefly before Jim casually grabbed my elbow and asked our actress to excuse us. Don’t get too excited though, it was just...
MORE COLIN
During our Saturday night phone call Colin invited me to come watch the Super Bowl with him and some friends at his apartment. I had to work again on Sunday but when I got home around 3pm, I went over to Colin’s almost immediately.
He lives in a great apartment in a great building about 7 blocks away from me. I was nervous and excited on my walk over there. When I got up to his...
COLIN UPDATE (AGAIN!)
I wasn’t planning on going out on Friday night. I’m working on a new webseries that we’re shooting on nights and weekends because of talent availability, and I had an 8am call time on the LES on Saturday morning. But Friday night around 7pm, I got a text from Colin asking me where a wine bar in our neighborhood (that I had mentioned over lunch) was located. I responded back...
COLIN UPDATE
Colin and I met for lunch on Thursday. I wasn’t sure if it was supposed to be work-ish or date-ish, but I knew that I didn’t want to be the one to cross that line first, especially because he’s in such a position to help my career. But he’s also totally and completely CUTE.
We had a great time. It was more work-ish than date-ish but I am usually pretty good at reading...
JIM UPDATE
I don’t get this guy. Not even a little. Does he like me? Is it all just a game? Is he not into women? There’s no way to be sure. This guy is a total mystery.
On Wednesday night, I was going over to his office to meet with him and our other friend/partner-in-crime, Joe. Before heading downtown to meet them, I received a BBM from Jim asking me if I could please pick up some...
CRAIG UPDATE
Craig waited until Monday to contact me. He emailed me, and was very funny. He asked me if I wanted to hang out one day next week and I said sure, pick a day. We’ll see what happens. I hope he doesn’t try to make out with me.
COLIN UPDATE
Colin messaged me on Facebook on Sunday evening. Short and sweet:
Hey! It was great meeting you last night.
I responded saying that it was great meeting him too, and I can’t believe we’re neighbors.
He wrote back and added that we should grab coffee or a drink one of these days.
I wrote back with: I would love to. What does your schedule look like?
To which he...
FRESH MEAT! COLIN, CRAIG, AND OLIVER.
On Saturday night, I went to my new friend Billie’s birthday party with Lauren. Billie is a bit older than we are and there was almost an entire roomful of strangers at the party that I became determined to meet. And so I did! Everyone was fantastic. I made alot of new friends, including several interesting men.
Colin is ten years older than me and incredibly sexy. Late 30’s...
JIM UPDATE
I think he’s back in the game. Christ, this boy is driving me out of my mind. Last week, I invited him to come to a comedy show with me. He told me he had work to do and couldn’t make it, but later in the evening asked me to come meet him at a bar where he was sitting alone drinking whiskey and writing on a yellow legal pad. He’s such a sexy old-school writer, it destroys me....
ETHAN UPDATE
This is an actual email from him:
I understand your busy and the fact that you’re not looking to get hooked into something (and to be honest, i am not either). But if u want to keep it casual, as i do enjoy your company, then we should get together soon.
This is from the boy to whom I told I did not want to get involved and then he proceeded to try and kiss me. I did not respond to this...
January 2010
7 posts
BILL
Bill and I have been friends for 10 years. The summer of our 16th year of life, I was on a Teen Tour (these are very popular with jewish teens in the Northeast) with Bill’s best friend Janet. Bill was at the Penn State Summer Program with my best friend Harry. When we all figured this out, we couldn’t believe it. When we started our Junior year of high school that fall, Harry and I...
ETHAN UPDATE (YES, AGAIN.)
He texted me today. Here was the exchange:
HIM-3:38PM: I had a good time on sat w u at the party, let’s do something this wk/wknd…
ME-6:13PM: This week/end is already booked up for me! Maybe next week
HIM-6:24PM: Wow, u book up fast, well see…enjoy the wk
ME-6:28PM: I am always a busy bee.
AH! Does he think I am playing some weird games with him? I really was quite up...
ETHAN UPDATE
Oh boy. Where to start with this one? If there was any doubt in my mind about dating Ethan/being attracted to him, my doubts were confirmed on Saturday night when he came to hang out with me at Erin’s birthday party. I made a point of not wanting to head over there with him. I caught a ride there with Erin and Eric, leaving him on his own to come meet us.
And he did. Which was sweet,...
MIKE/LARRY/ETHAN/RICK/MARTIN/MICHAEL UPDATES
WOW! 2010 is definitely off to an interesting start:
Mike never called. Lauren saw him on Tuesday night and mentioned that he had asked about me and had told her that he thought I was “adorable” and “so much fun” but that he’s “sort of dating someone.” NEXT.
Larry has been semi-stalking, as predicted. It leaves me in a strange predicament because I...
MIKE
Lauren invited me to come to a party on Saturday night that involved alot of industry-folk. It was an excellent opportunity for me to mingle and meet some great new people, most of whom are comedy writers, producers and comedians. Mike happened to be one of the comedians I met at the party. I had heard alot about him, as he’s pretty successful on the NY comedy circuit, but we had never...
LARRY
I met Larry months ago, when I was producing a video for his client, which was a HUGE client deal for my company. After our first in-person meeting, our Ad Sales rep told me that he was in love with me. I knew Larry was bad news from the beginning.
He’s tiny. And I don’t mean like Tom Cruise tiny, I mean like a shade taller than me (I’m barely 5 foot) tiny. He’s also...
ETHAN
A day or so after the FUCKING MARK Debacle, I hopped on a plane down to Florida for a 5-day vacation of relaxation in my grandparent’s big house with a pool in their gated community. Even though Grandma sometimes treats my visits as a live action j-date, I usually manage to avoid all attempts at set-ups with her friends’ grandsons.
I avoided it this time around by running into an old...
December 2009
2 posts
A FUCKING MARK Confession. I KNOW!?!
FUCKING MARK is such a poisonous turd that it’s taken me almost a week to muster up the courage to write this post. I’ve been so mortified that I caved and started talking to him again, and so ashamed to tell people that I was truly considering keeping it a secret that I would take with me to the grave. But part of this project is learning to be honest with myself about the choices I...
Long Time, No Love.
I realize that it’s been almost a month since my last entry, and it’s for the exact reason you might have guessed: my love life is nonexistent.
In the last month, I’ve let communication with Jack fall by the wayside. He just wasn’t doing it for me. He’s smart and cute and funny and perfect on paper, but the spark isn’t there for me and the sex certainly...
MR. COFFEE
I am not a coffee drinker. I never have been. So when I need a little afternoon pick me up now that it’s getting colder (and now that there is less daylight), I go for Chai or Hot Chocolate. I am very particular about my Chai. I happen to like it sweet, which alot of coffee shops cannot accomplish. Which leaves me with the hot chocolate option.
This is how I met Mr. Coffee. I ran out...
JACK UPDATE
Haven’t really spoken to Jack since our rendezvous last weekend. We never talk on the phone, we rarely email, and our 20 questions on Facebook never made it past #11. After the good but not great sex we had last time, I really wasn’t sure that I wanted to see him again at all. It’s just not really worth the trouble.
But then I ran into him on my way to the L train this...
RICK
In my haste to rush out for the holidays, I began to slack off on my Dating Diary entries. Rick will be the first of three.
I met Rick as I was walking back into my office building after picking up lunch. Rick was walking out as I was walking in, and as we passed by each other I heard him turn to me and say: “Wow, you are so cute.”
I started giggling to myself, because it’s...
November 2009
11 posts
JACK
While on set for work on Thursday, I got an email from Jack which listed off movie options and times and suggesting that depending on the movie we see we should have some sangria before/after. I was completely enamored with his take charge attitude and the fact that he did ALL the planning for this date. I spend my life planning EVERYTHING for everyone (I’m a producer…have I...
Text messaging might be ruining my love life. →
An excerpt from this NYT article:
Over the past few decades, these social scripts became obsolete. They didn’t fit the post-feminist era. So the search was on for more enlightened courtship rules. You would expect a dynamic society to come up with appropriate scripts. But technology has made this extremely difficult. Etiquette is all about obstacles and restraint. But technology, especially...
DANIEL AND JACK UPDATES
So, not going to lie, I totally bailed out on Daniel this past weekend. I just can’t care about dating anymore. I have been working like a maniac the past two months, and my career really seems to be taking off. Or is at least well on its way to taking off! I just don’t really have time for boys these days. Sigh.
Although on the bright side, this is helping me weed out the usual...
DANIEL AND JACK
Dinner with Daniel tomorrow night and movies with Jack next Friday!
Somehow I am managing to maintain some semblance of a love life while my career has been taking over my life. All good things, even though I am exhausted.
JIM UPDATE
And, I am SO over it! I don’t know what this kid’s deal is, but it ain’t for me anymore. In fact, I feel completely pathetic for essentially throwing myself at him.
It’s not that anything really happened to change my mind, it’s just total emotional exhaustion in dealing with this weirdo King of Mixed Messages. Well, that, and also that his friend Bill mentioned to...
JESSE
Jesse started text messaging me last night. I had sort of forgotten about him, with all the focus being on Jim recently. This was our exchange:
Him: Hey girl, how are you?
Me: Hi Dexter! How are you?
Him: Ha, I’m great, how art thou?
Me: I’m good! Got pretttty drunk tonight. (sidenote: This is true.)
Him: How fun!
3 minutes, no response from me.
Him: Where did the night take...
HALLOWEENIES.
I had high hopes for Halloween. It was supposed to be the night that Jim finally kissed me. Although early on in the evening, it became quite apparent to me that that wasn’t going to happen. Especially when he told me that he promised a friend of his that he would go to a few parties with him, so “if (!) I make it, it’s going to be on the later side.” I was bummed. ...
DANIEL UPDATE
Daniel and I have been texting each other since meeting our chance encounter on the subway on Monday. On Thursday evening he asked if I wanted to meet up for a drink in our neighborhood. I was exhausted after having been on set all day, but I agreed. I’ve been working so much lately, that if I don’t make that extra effort to have a social life, I definitely wouldn’t have one.
...
October 2009
12 posts
JIM
Jim has been back as a regular player since he came to my Comix show earlier in the month. In fact, after that night, Jim had asked me if I wanted to collaborate on a few projects with him and his writing partner. I agreed.
So a few weeks ago, I started producing Jim’s live show at Comix. On his way to the venue, he called me and asked me if I would help him with his hair when we got...
DANIEL
Had an appointment a few blocks from my apartment this morning, forcing me to take the 1 train to work today instead of my usual B/C commute. The 1 train is never fun. Similar to the 4/5/6, the 1 is insanely and uncomfortably crowded during rush hour. I was relieved when I managed to squeeze myself into a cozy spot near the door, relatively unmolested by everyone else on the train. I was...
ADAM UPDATE
And the texts continued through the weekend! I have to hand it to him, Adam really tried his hardest to convince me to come hang out with him this weekend. If it hadn’t been raining so hard on Saturday night, and if I hadn’t gotten drunk/stoned with my brothers that night, I might have considered letting Adam come over.
I’ll keep him waiting.
ADAM
So, Adam is back in the game.
I’ve seen him several times over the past month, and each time our flirtation heightens. First, I saw him at Jay’s engagement party earlier in the month. We had a lovely conversation, and for the first time since meeting him, felt like there might be something more substantive to him (although he is in Yale Med School, so he can’t completely be a...
JACK
After my ridiculously epic fight with Mark, I went out on a date with Jack. We decided to meet at Art Bar in the West Village. He was waiting for me outside and was looking pretty cute. We found a cozy spot on a couch in the back of the bar and ordered drinks. Jack ordered for me; he knew what my favorite drink was from our game of 20 questions. For the next 4 hours we sat and talked. We...