Oh boy. Where to start with this one? If there was any doubt in my mind about dating Ethan/being attracted to him, my doubts were confirmed on Saturday night when he came to hang out with me at Erin’s birthday party. I made a point of not wanting to head over there with him. I caught a ride there with Erin and Eric, leaving him on his own to come meet us.
And he did. Which was sweet, but at the same time I didn’t want to feel tied to him at Erin’s party. I wanted to do my own thing, as usual, and was very conscious about not wanting to give him too much attention or spend too much time with him. Throughout the night, I was getting comments from people (including more mutual friends from high school) about whether or not we were dating. I made sure to answer that question with a resounding “No!” He started touching me more as the night wore on, but I was finding myself wanting to wriggle out of his grip, which is always a bad sign.
At the end of the night, Erin and Eric invited a bunch of us back to their apartment. We decided to get pizzas before heading back to the city. So while Ethan and I waited for the pizzas, Erin and Eric went to get the car with the others. We sat and had a glass of wine while we waited, and Ethan told me that he had already spoken to my high school boyfriend (and his current friend) about “us.” I realized that he was getting WAY too far ahead of himself, because there is definitely no “us” yet. So I decided to take the moment to be very honest with him about my not being willing/ready to date right now. That I’d be happy to continue with our friendship, but that’s all I can offer. He appreciated my honesty and seemed to respect my choice. That’s when Erin called me to tell me that she was outside.
We went outside with the pizzas to wait for them and Ethan decides to take the moment to try and kiss me. WHAT?! WHAT WAS HE THINKING?! NO! Did he think I was joking about everything I was telling him not 5 minutes before? Well, I wasn’t. And I pushed him away immediately, telling him that I was serious about what I was saying. The fact that he did that was the ultimate NOPE for me. I am so not into it at all anymore. Not even a little.
When he finally left Erin and Eric’s apartment, the verdict was in: Ethan is OUT.
And that takes care of that.
