During our Saturday night phone call Colin invited me to come watch the Super Bowl with him and some friends at his apartment. I had to work again on Sunday but when I got home around 3pm, I went over to Colin’s almost immediately.
He lives in a great apartment in a great building about 7 blocks away from me. I was nervous and excited on my walk over there. When I got up to his apartment, I gave him a kiss hello and noticed that he also seemed sort of nervous. He showed me around his gorgeous apartment (which he owns! He is such a grown up!). We sat for a while on his couch talking and looking at pictures of his friends and family on his computer. I felt really comfortable being there with him. Colin at one point asked me if I wanted a Blue Moon. I asked him if he knew that Blue Moon was my favorite beer (I had mentioned it briefly on Friday night), and he responded with “Oh is it?” with a sly smile on his face. He’s so freaking thoughtful it’s seriously awe-inspiring.
Once his friends started to show up, my nerves hit all over again. I became acutely aware of how much younger I am than them. They’re all in their mid to late 30’s, two married with children. I was also completely aware of the fact that I was crashing a guy’s night. But aside from my own paranoia, everyone was massively welcoming and nice to me. I ended up having a great time! Towards the end of the night, Colin asked me if I would spend the night there with him, that the cable guy was coming in the morning to fix his internet, and he’d be able to spend the morning with me. I agreed but decided to let him finish out the evening with his friends while I ran home to get some supplies (contact solution, glasses, toothbrush, deodorant, etc…). I called Jess on my way home and swore to her that I wasn’t going to sleep with him. I just wanted to spend the night. I was actually afraid that things were going so well that sleeping together would probably ruin it. In the past, anyone I’ve had sexual chemistry with has been an awful human being (FUCKING MARK!) and anyone who is great, I’ve had no sexual chemistry with.
But once we were in bed together, we couldn’t help ourselves. AND IT WAS WONDERFUL! I was so pleasantly surprised. We fell asleep in each other’s arms and when I’d somehow roll away from him in the night, he would find me and pull me back into him. His alarm went off at 6:30am and we ended up having some excellently hot morning sex. We laid in bed for a while, watched tv together, laughing and talking while holding each other and kissing every now and then. When he finally got up to get ready for work I fell back asleep. I woke up a little before 10am just as Colin had come back into the bedroom. ”Morning, babe!” he says to me. I love that. It’s just so happy and familiar already.
I am giddy all over. I really, really like him. And I really, really see potential in this relationship for the first time…maybe ever. I am nervous and excited and sort of terrified!
